Hi guys, this is an Instagram post I wrote about my experience with learning to forgive myself. I was angry about everything I put myself through with dieting and disordered eating, so learning how to let go of that frustration was key to finding the self-acceptance I desperately needed to move forward in my food freedom journey.
I hated my body for not being what I wanted it to be, I was angry with myself for not being able to stop binge eating, and I was beyond frustrated that I couldn’t keep dieting because of what I thought was a lack of self-control.
I WAS CREATING RESISTANCE 😬
I was keeping myself stuck LONGER in an unhealthy relationship with food because I did not accept that I was doing the best I could at that time 🤦♀️
I thought it was ME, so I held onto that anger and made myself miserable. The torturous replay of what I ate that day over and over in my head, the scribbles of meal plans I wrote in my notebooks during class, the inner fights with my brain about what I should or shouldn’t eat for dinner like everything was some unsolvable math equation.
Do you know what actually helped me?
FORGIVENESS ❤️I had to stop being angry at myself for all of the torture I put myself through so that I could finally let go and move on.
Holding onto the dieting just to prove I was “right” and that I had “everything” was dangerous. I wanted so badly to be mad at myself because I WANTED DIETING TO BE RIGHT 😤
If it was ✨ME that had to be fixed to match the diet it seemed easier because I would still get everything I thought I wanted.
If it was the ✨DIET that had to be fixed everything was going to be called into question‼️ Everything I believed in and worked for was going to be destroyed.
And I was SO afraid of things going back to the way they were 😭
It was messy, challenging, and I needed to lean on Mick a lot in order to get through it.
TAKEAWAY: I GOT THROUGH IT 🙌🏼
That’s why I made my food freedom workbook for you guys 💕 so you can have some kind of plan instead of having to wing it and feel hopelessly lost. This is a plan of self-awareness, eating in a way that works for YOU, and creating a life that supports your healthy relationship with food.
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